An Affair to Remember

CANCUN, MEXICO!!!

Is where I spent 2011 Spring Break. And it was everything that I thought it would be and more. I went with my amazing little Brother, Brandon and another brother Antwanette as well as some of their friends that are slowly melting into mine. To say we had a drink or two would be the understatement of the century! There clubs were simply amazing. I had the most fun dancing to the music. I thought they'd be more latino music but it was all American surprisingly. And the locals were so nice and honest hardworking people. I can honestly say I fell in love with Mexico in those 3 short days. I even had a little make out session with someone. Which surprised me, because I'm no where near the type to be making out with people I don't even know. I'm definitely not that kind of girl. But it was still a memory that I look back on and smile about just because of how daring and exciting it was. For me. Spring Break 2011 will always be ingrained in my mind, regardless of my terrible memory.

But one thing I learned and have been thinking about recently are risks. I tell my friends that they have to be willing to take risks and such in life as that's the only way to live without missing out on possibly great things. I believe this, but I can't help but feel hypocritical saying this when I don't allow myself to take risks either. I've never had a boyfriend because of that. I get in my own way of that, largely in part of my self esteem issues. So I'm overweight, and not the best looking girl and I think that I shouldn't even bother. And then there's that thing that I know guys love so much...and let's be real, girls too....s-e-x. I don't believe in having sex before marriage and I just find it hard to date like that when so many people don't believe the same thing. And who's to say that I do find someone that agrees to that, how do I know they aren't finding it somewhere else? But that is what it all boils down to. I just have to be willing to take the risk and to get hurt. No one wants to get hurt but I guess sometimes you have to be beat down before you can be built back up and find something true and right.

I guess it's safe to say that I'm just a work in progress and have to take it day by day.